Tantrums in the Boardroom
Rage boils inside as her eyes bore into the person entering the room and sitting; her nemesis. They had a difficult and emotive history and she imagined ways in which she could defeat him.
“Morning, Paul, shall we get started?” Her false tone dripped with forced sincerity.
“Morning, Alex, ready when you are.”
He was classically good looking with designer stubble, dark-chiselled features and an immaculate, high-quality suit. She could see why he was used to getting his own way. She knew how to play this game. She invented this game. Her own suit was equally, if not more, expensive and she made the best use of her features. She wore her naturally blonde hair down, so the locks fell gracefully over her shoulders, with the slightest hint of makeup – it was all she needed.
Paul’s friendly manner was irritating. How he could be so friendly, given the history between them, was baffling. His smile was nauseating. She ensured a smile was fixed firmly on her own face, ever the consummate professional.
Sometimes she wanted to kill him. Not metaphorically, but literally. As violently as possible, although she wasn’t keen on mess, so it would need to be somewhere neutral where she could just leave the body and not have to tidy up afterwards.
In these moments of intense frustration and loathing she lived out this fantasy. Was that all it was a fantasy? Could she really take another human life? Deep down she doubted it, although this didn’t stop her imagination running away with her; to a place where this man no longer existed. It was her sanctuary, her happy place. Visualising herself in that world, she now had a reason to smile. If he was gone then everything would work.
“Hello Paul, how are James and the children?” Best to make small talk first, always looks good!
“Very well, thank you. He’s enjoying being a stay at home dad.”
Isn’t that lovely. Perfect suit, looks and home life, could you be any more of a cliché!
“So, Alex, what is your opinion on our counter proposal?”
He was wasting no time in getting back to business, she noted. Never bothered to ask about her home life – typical! Not that she had one though, her work was her life and here was this arsehole trying to scupper her plans.
“It needs further consideration, Paul,” she said regaining her bearings. “It would be wrong to make a snap decision, especially given the seriousness of what we are discussing here. I would like a little longer to consider my response to your questions.”
“Time is of the essence.”
“Naturally, you know better than anyone that I’m keen for a speedy resolution, but I need to duly consider the wider implications, not just internally, but externally as well.”
“When can we expect a response then?”
“Within forty-eight hours – do you require another meeting? I can get my PA to arrange it.” She loved saying that!
“That won’t be necessary. I will need your response in writing and then, should there be any queries, a meeting maybe necessary.”
She thought realistically about the predicament. This was all about winning and if she killed him then they would both be losers. Her adrenalin started to pump as she took another tack; what if she ruined him instead? He would then see her triumph. Thinking about this for a second it all became clear. Yes, she thought to herself. I’ll bring him to his knees, have him begging for mercy. She would not grant it; she had to be clear now in this moment that it was all or nothing. Any sign of weakness and he would bring her down. She would lose everything.
Paul rose to leave. She remained seated. She needed time to think.
“Sorry this couldn’t be resolved today, Alex, although I agree with you, any response needs to be properly considered. I look forward to hearing from you.”
She wasn’t sure if a few seconds or minutes had passed; she rose to her feet and gathered her things together. It would be best if the first stages of her plan were thrashed out at home. This would allow her to collect her thoughts into some logical sequence. A decision was imminent; however, nothing could be rushed. Success would give her the support she needed. With everybody behind her there would be nothing to stop her achieving the ultimate goal. Dreams fulfilled. Vision accomplished. Failure would not just be the end of her; it would be disastrous for everyone around her. They wouldn’t see that immediately. By the time they did it would be too late. Nothing could be done. Nobody would win. Even Paul would lose out in the end. Why couldn’t he see this?
She moved forward; head up and confident strides. Nobody would question her. She needed information. It had to be subtle. She knew that. The request wouldn’t arouse suspicion; however his fall from grace was bound to prompt questions and mutterings. Her hands must be clean.
With everything she needed, she exited the building via the rear doors. It was what she always did. She relayed a few messages to ensure that nothing was going to disturb her, threw the bags into the back of the car and was away.
Slow moving traffic exacerbated her temper. She thought of how stupid she must have looked when he left the room all victorious. Shaking her head she jerked herself back to reality. As she left the city centre the road opened out and her foot squeezed on the accelerator. The sense of freedom as life and normality flew past the windows was fuelling her passion and creativity. This was her moment to shine and finally get her revenge on Paul, for everything he had done to her. His betrayal still ran deep and stirred up old emotions which Alex had tried to bury for so long. There he was, now happily married with his gorgeous husband and designer children and what did she have?
Once home she spread the papers out on the large modern dining table. She dressed into something more comfortable, wearing her favourite thick woollen socks. The crackling log fire was lit and a generous glass of Merlot poured. She sat down on the floor enjoying the heat of the fire, ran her fingers through her hair and downed the glass in one. She poured herself another glass, ready to begin.
Looking down at the table there was a mountain of paperwork. There had to be a starting point. It was to be a long night. The bottle of wine was soon demolished and a second one swiftly opened. She rubbed her temples as her head started to throb.
“Come on nobody is that squeaky clean. There’s got to be something. Come on Alex think.” She found talking aloud gave her a motivational boost.
“He’s got to have a weakness, all men do. He can’t be everybody’s friend?”
In a moment of madness she flung the wine glass into the fire. The broken glass glistened against the flames. For a few seconds it was entrancing. A loud pop, the glass disintegrating in the fire, brought her round. Her anger frightened her and made her feel dirty.
She showered, allowing the powerful jet of water to relieve her headache and stop her thinking for a moment. She blocked out the world; the only noise being the sound of the water as it cascaded down her body and cleansed her.
She awoke with a start – it was 5.a.m. She didn’t remember falling asleep or indeed climbing into bed. A new day beckoned. She had some time before she was first expected so she returned to the living room. The remaining embers of the fire from the night before had long since extinguished and the house had that early morning chill – she shivered.
With a hot mug of filter coffee clasped between her hands she inhaled deeply. The smell was comforting. She glanced at all the papers on the table and sighed with frustration. Her eyes scanned over everything. Suddenly she stopped. It had been staring her in the face all this time. The thing she knew everyone had – a weakness!
She arrived at the office early; took one of the orange envelopes used for internal mail and put all the evidence inside. Making her way up the stairs there was a hush in the building. Nobody started this early. She slipped the anonymous envelope under the Chief Executive’s door and returned to her office. She knew in just over an hour the fireworks would start.
By lunchtime, her plan had worked and Paul was leaving the building; suspended, pending an investigation. It appeared to have worked, yet she mustn’t be complacent. There was a full investigation to take place. He would deny everything. Of course he would; he’d have done so even if he was guilty.
It had been so simple. She had instigated a critical data security breach. All the documentary evidence pointed to Paul. The Chief Executive had been the one to order the investigation. Her hands were clean. Despite strict confidentiality codes, the whisperings had already started. Even if he managed to wriggle his way out of this, his internal reputation would be in tatters.
She played her part superbly during the investigation. Her feigned surprise and disbelief had an air of professionalism and inside she was singing.
It didn’t take long. It was a business critical matter and it had to be dealt with swiftly and harshly. He was gone for good within a week. There was an appeal shortly after, a mere formality and of course he lost.
The Chief Executive summoned Alex to his office.
“It’s a difficult business. Thank you for your assistance these last two weeks Alex, it’s been invaluable,” he said.
“I only wish it could have been under more pleasant circumstances.”
“He still denies everything and is threatening a tribunal.”
“It’s to be expected.”
“Well I don’t need the bother of this going on for months. I’ve asked the lawyers to make an offer.”
“Surely that looks like we think there is some doubt?” She could feel the panic rising, yet kept her voice calm.
“Not at all, it’s just easier to pay him off, we’ve got a lot happening as you know and we don’t need to have our focus split. Besides he’s got young kids, it won’t look good for the company whether we win or lose. This way he goes away quietly. Besides, his husband’s an employment lawyer.”
That explains a lot.
“I just want an end to the whole sordid mess, Alex.”
“I can appreciate that,” she said relieved, again concealing this through her professionally polished image. She turned to leave.
“Bit of a blessing in disguise for you all this isn’t Alex? Given the history between you and Paul.”
She was thankful she was facing the other way, as she hadn’t been able to keep her composure this time.
“Whatever do you mean?” she asked innocently, turning round.
“Don’t give me that coy look Alex. Paul was the most vocal and toughest Union Rep I’ve ever come across in a forty-year career. Stroke of luck really, should be no opposition to your change programme now. As Head of HR, I expect you to take the lead on this now.”
She simply nodded and left the room, with a noticeable bounce to her step. The Union had finally been defeated!









